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Its 4:41 in th morning but im still AWAKE
just get back from the club hoping that il get DRUNK
and forget everythng for a while, but IM NOT
really IM NOT TOTALLY DRUNK or mybe is this because
drinks cannot defeat my PAINS ? :))

so where should i go now? everyone of my friends are DRUNK
everyone in my phone are sleeping , some people in FB are still awake
but i CANT TALK TO THEM, really , everytime i read those messages
like " what happen to U and TASH? ya know its more killing me><
it killing me like deathhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

everythngs still fresh on me, those time people mesge me and says" PERFECT COUPLE"
" YOU LOOK GOOD TOGETHER," "YOU REALL LOVE EACH OTHER" and everythng~
i just cant imagine that EVERYTHING ENDS UP NOW.

i want to ACT NORMAL, like nothings happen
i want to talk to evryone , SAY HELLO AND SMILE,
but i cant == seeing evryone's CONCERNS about me
make me more HURT and seeing her OLD MESSGES KILLS ME ><

im just thinkng of our "PLANS BEFORE" plans tht well gonna soon make,
dreams that gonna be fulfill soon, but everythngs GONE NOW :(

im thnngkng if when il start deletng those blogpost ABOUT US
since i know her future bf gonna see it, and misunderstood so i better
start removing it == but how to? IT KILLS MEEEEEEEEEEE

aigo :( or am i just thhingkng too much ?
kyaa~ mianhe to all person who read this
ya its nonsense but i just try to ease those pains..

so ya. il need to accept everything
be off now~ GOING SOMEWHERE, but whr ? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa just everywhre
il just follow my feet lol..

i wish someone can stop me from crying :)

C H A N G E

its March 18,2010 ~ m in my last class, ady send message to her~.
way home. thrs a car hit my motorbike, got head injury and toes,
a drunk girl driv the car~ i evn not able to talk to her
she ady left whn im awake in hosptal~.

i first saw yumi and kman whn i open my two eyes~ thyr both
my close friends so thyr my first visitors,
i ask thm to tell my yeojachingu tht i cant go online
for couple of days or mybe 3, i just dun wnt her
to worried bout me==. i thnk thy did ~.

i feel so bored stayng thr~ better its just 2 days short of time
but seems a year for me ~ ><. i ask my friends to brng my loptop thr
secretly since its not allowd for me to do too much thngs, dctor said
must rest rest rest sleep sleep and sleep~ aigoo il kill myself if i do that!
i got my loptop thr, stil can open and check my girl. i saw hr change
her status, and now i thnk she ady knew it~. dun wnt her to worry
bfor sndng her msg~ i check her msn, her formspring, her blogspot,
her twitter~ well almst all of her site~. im stalkingXD

and i was like F*CK! whats ths? i bet someone flirt on her
and she flirt aso == what the. i got my head so cmplicated
thnkng wht is it ? what hppen? is it true? what should i do?
im not able to msg hr since i was angry,
better go off and rest ==

next day~ still in hspital. evn it hurts i still got courage to check her
well ya shes still my girlfriend and i still care and ofcours i love her.
i open her fb, but still~ its still thr :)).and now gettng worst
hes callng her " BABE " what the~ im jst actng silly or should i get really damn
jelous ? or should i call othr girls " BABE " also ~ >< aaaaaaaaa hate this~ and nw my friends wnt me not to go online ><
and ya i thnk its the best so i cant see more worst cnversationsXD
dun wnt to ruin anythngdun wnt to scold people ~ dun wnt to argue wit her
better go off again ==


now now now~ back home
wkwkwkwk..
still thnkng bout it~
i cant help but just think think and think
i ask my friends wht should i do
thy keep sayng, better giv up
and dun go online.~ well ya
i thnk its better but aaaaaaaaaaaaa~
im missing herrrr so much!
i dun care if i see much worst of tht conversation
so ya~ fightinggg! AJAAA


i post smthng in my status ~ like
" everything in her change most of it is her "
well i dun wnt her to thnk bout it
so i choose nt to msg her~
i post video of stevie hoang il be fine
cause i lyk it ~ and i thnk she do aso~

Still can remmber whn she post tht video
in her wall~ and
song fit on my feelngs so ya~
actng emotional again XD.



but aigoooooooooooo><
shes spammng me ==
thnk she worried now
relax hyun ~ dun talk to her
your angry to her ryt?
she dun know wht u feel
dont talk dont talk~

but aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
i cant help
so ya~ message
her just one last messg!
just short message
just let her know
that im fine no need to think
no need to worry~ IM FINNEE REALLYY!

she reply~
i didnt notice that i keep replyng herrr
:OOOO what thee~
and nw im i cnt control my emotion
m i cryng? :O

i dun care wht everyone say
i dun care of anyone
i jst care bout her her her her~

MIANHE If i hurt you ==
if i act so silly~
i just cnt help evrythng ==

ya i love you ~ i always do
dun thnk tht i stop it
even a second ~
ive always love you~.
ya know it .

난 내 여자 친구를 아주 많이 사랑 ~ 난 그녀가 너무 날 사랑 희망 -_-

I aways receive some messages , rumors, chat text
and everything about our relationhp , ARE WE THAT FAMOUS ? ~ lolXD
they keep sending me like " your relationship wont work "
then i keep asking whyd you say so ? thy simply answer " cause your
in LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP " is that so? i thnk that reason
are just for low people ---. mianhe for speaking and reactng ,
but arrrg -- it annoys me, cant u please just dont mind us
and get your own life ?~.

one more question i aways receiv is the annoyng one
" she dont love you why you still togthr?"
f*CK ~ howd u know? r u two in relationshp aso? oh cmmon ~ ANU SALI PEOPLE ~.

well yaa ~ some of thr words ar true ~ we dont talk too much
we dont talk like whole day whole night , ~ but i know in me
i love her for real ~, and aso the way she do,

mkay mkay~ let me just put it like she really dun love
me , just wht some ppl say like shes just playng
oh well ~ who cres? your not the one whol gonna be hurt
its me ~ ME ME ME , so no worries mkay?
wont past th heataches to everyone , i wont spread it out ^^.

you got your own life ne --? i got mine too XD
so foccus on yours mkay ? ^^

My Girl , My Babe , My Yeojachinguu , My Tash ~

I thnk everyone knows about her, everyone knows that She's my girl
and she's MINE ! only MINE~ so dun try to get her away from me even flirt her~
or else i wont hesitate to KILL YOU! == and pokes u right in your face ~

I just wnt to blog somethng about her, not just because she's my girlfrind,
well yea ~ it counts but the main reason is that im amaze of her~

so here it goes ~^^
I met this girl ~ just hr in facebook, in INTERNET world, im busy replyng to everyone's
wall post in my profile, well i can say im really friendly though ne~ Lol.
so thrs someone named NATASHA LEE snd me wall post~,
my first empression was quiet not good. i thought shs some knd of strict and
mean, aaa~ mybe some say tht also, bcause of hr face shes not too innocent
isnt it~? kyahahaha~XD. lol. but bhalf of thaT~ i got some little affction on her~
i got crush ~ no one can blame me , shes pretty !

So we start replyng each othrs wall~and now i notice that my frst mpression is wronG~
she is so cool and easy to b with ~^^. i quickly catch the oppurtunity ~ she said shes 22 , shes older thn me, so she suggest i must call her " noona" well NO NO NO~
i dun wnt, ~ i dun wnt to call my crush " noona " so i thnk its now my time to flirt ~ LOL , kyahaha~XD well nee, i said just call me anythng u wnt ,and i call u the same way too~ i suggest some sweet call signs, but it ends up to this sweet remarkble sign ~ its " BABE " well i like it cause shes only th one m callng that way ~ SWEAR!


and now im feeling shes havng fun tlkng wit me ~ so i was like bit proud and feelng HappY~^^ lol,. but thrs someone flirtng her ~ aigooo i was like " i wnt to poke someone" but i wont mention his name hr ~ lol :)) wr good friends so yea~ may the best man wins ~:)) just a week after we talked, she post smthng in her status some like she likes smone ~ i ask her if who is it, wit a bit bad feelings in my hrt ~
cause im expcting its HIM ~ lol. but i ws surprised whn she said ITS ME !

i was not able to thanks her for likng me :)) im not able to make a moment
and make myself blush~ lol i directly said to her ~ " why me? im ugly ! "
cause i knw the othr guy was handsome ~ kyahahahaXD

i didnt beliv her~ i was like, mybe shes just mkng FUN of me cause she know
m kind of intrsted on her -- so i keep tellng to myself ~" controol "
well tht time i aso got some flirtings wit othr girls ~ its not totally flirtng
mybe havng mutual understandinG~

so i cnt get into relationshP~ whle evrythng is not so clear~
and m not so sure of babe's feelngs tht time. i keep visitng and viewing
her sites ~ wondering f shes online, f what shes doing~ in short " STALKING"
~ well i was bit amaze when she post some sweet words for me ~
shes tryng to prov tht she hav real feelngs for me ~
i was like ~ " aigooo is this is it ? "

her works ~ mke my affction and feelngs for her more strong~.
i was lke talkng to hr everyday~ in my sites and in msn.
its like its just ME and HER when wer talkng LOL:))

well slowly ~ its like wer lookng forward to get into
a relationshp, m not so sure of everythng~ so i jst
said to hr, let just take more time and il make
things more clear to us ~ , ( i thnk m just being hard to get)
kyahahahaha~XD she just agree and agree~while m hiding my
wanting to be hr namjachinggu~ i need to do it
so i can make sure of my feelngs and her aso ~
so no one of us will be hurt whn we enter ~ relationshp~


days ~ time ~ minutes run so Fastt~ whn im talkng to her
i dnno why but thts wht i feel~ :))

Its March 02,2010 ~ i ws talkng to her in MSN ~
she said shes checkng my updates, shes checkng
wht im doing when shes not around ~ and she saw
somthng that i did ~ i was like , Liking some girls
picture in facebook~, i thnk she bcme bit jealous
and i just said ~ tht girl just ask me to like her pics ~.
well ne its true ~ its not my purpose to mke her jealous eithr ~.

she was like ~ " why you aways do ~ all thy tell and ask u to ? "
smthng like thaT~ and i can feel tht im being unfair`~
i can feel she did everythng just to prove tht shes tellng the truth
tht she like me ~ tht she loves me ~~^^ ♥

so i said to her tht . m going to giv her aso , what she want ~
i quickly send her Yeojachinggu invitation in faceboOk~,
i ask hr to check it ~ anddd ---

shes like gettng crazy~
but i know shes happy for tht ~ me eithr,
m longing for it ~ m waiting for tht time to come~
and now were so Official~.and nee ~ im so loving it,
i love to own her~ and call her my YEOJACHINGGU~ MY GIRL~ MY BABE~
and MINE ONLY ! ~


and now wer amost ~ 1 week and 2 days ~^^ wel try ~ to make it more long~.
well gonna make it F - O - R - E - V - E - R ! ♥

i usually TEASE her when she say shes pretty ~ Sexy ~ good and BEST
i dun much appreciate her ~ she will just be too proud,:)) LOL
just Look at her pic ~ she look so DEVIL~

but for me ~ shes th ANGEL OF MY HEART & THE ONLY GIRL OF MY LIFE ~.
SARANGHAEYOOOOOO BABEEE! ~ WO AI NIIIIII~~ and

I LOVEEE YOUUU SO MUCHHHHH~ ♥




P.S : SHES NOT MINE SHES NOT MY PROPERTY ~ SHES MY LIFE ,SO PLEASE DONT TAKE IT ! ~ I MIGHT DIE ~^^

자기야 제발 영원히 내

내가 이런 기분이 기대하지 않았다 !! ~

나는 그것을 믿기 힘들 거라는 건 알지만

하지만, 제발 내 곁에 널 사랑해

그래서이 나와 함께 영원히

그리고 난 당신을 사랑하고 당신을 돌봐줄 약속

당신의 사랑이 내 삶이다

자기야 난 널 사랑해 !! ~~ ♥

Yeojachingu ~ ♥

03.02.10

I'm Ady Taken now, well it seems really fast to everyone even me :))
But what is waiting if we know we'll be in relationship sooner.

( She just ask me to do this ) Muahahah:)) Kidding ~
Its My freewill just to show She also means a Lot to me :)

Shes Natasha Lee, My Yeojachinguu . I just met her here in facebook.
In internet world, but i know im loving her for real.And i aso know
she feel the same way, Im lucky cause i got someone like her,
and i hope it will last.

Note for you : Babe I wont promise not TO HURT YOU, and i wont promise
that i WONT LEAVE YOU , cause i might just broke it and cause u too much
pain. All i wnt is to do everything i can ~ My very best ..~ (^^)
just to make you stay with me and make this last long,
Long as what we expected ^^

Saranghaeyo, Saranghamnida, Saranghe Yeojachinggu Aien ~
I Love you ♥